[...she just. rubs at her face, there, quiet again for a few moments; her posture's more tense, and seems to be staying that way.]

Even if you came back from it, death is still death. I can imagine the toll that must have taken on anyone who wasn't already familiar with it, and to inflict it on you in that way is--

It's a horrible thing to have gone through.

Was it only to enforce your compliance?